So You Want to Be OT?
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This is written primarily for in-church scientologists who are breaking the 
rules by reading this.


What's OT anyway?

In this short article, I use OT to mean "effective, able to make a 
decision, able to change one's mind without being stuck in being right or 
investments in earlier behavior, able to * be cause * over a situation."

Some people want to do parlor tricks and violate physical universe 
laws.  That might be possible  - fakirs walk on hot coals, eastern 
metaphysics and such.  But it's not an area that interests me except that 
it demonstrates that some non-scientologists are OT in even the most 
literal sense.  More interesting to me are the people who are capable and 
effective in real life and what it is about them, or what they do, to be 
that way.


No OTs There

There is a saying among scientology critics: No OTs There.  It most 
commonly is used to mean that there are no scientologists in the church who 
can work miracles, perform feats of magic on demand, or prevent critics 
from creating an effect unwanted by church powers.  That statement carries 
more truth than critics realize.  You can become OT in the COS, but to stay 
OT, you have to leave.

To be OT, you have to see what you see, not what someone else tells you to see.

To stay OT, you cannot say that you see something other than you do see.



Fear and Survival

Why would someone say such a thing?  There is no single answer.  But I was 
not only a church member and staff member, I grew up in scientology.  I 
lied to others and myself, saying that I saw something other than I 
saw.  And I did it for several years.  Here are some of my personal reasons:

-       I've lived all my life in scientology and I don't know what I'd do 
if I weren't in the church.

-       The "wog world" is dangerous and full of false appearances and lies 
and I don't want to live there.

-       What I'm doing [on my post, as a scientologist] matters and my life 
wouldn't have meaning if I were not doing that.

-       I'd lose all my friends and the people I love if I left the 
church.  They would "disconnect" from me. I'd be all alone.

-       I would be doomed forever; I'd never be OT and I'd eventually 
become MEST.  Hopelessness, as far as the eye could see.

-       The only "tech" outside the church is squirrel tech intended to 
trap me and I'd better not look over there.

-       If I left, I'd be * fair game* and an SP.  Something bad might 
happen to me, or the people I love, or my children.  And I'd probably 
deserve it, because I wouldn't be deciding on the basis of "the greatest 
good for the greatest number of dynamics".

-       This is the best universe possible and if I just work hard enough 
at what I know is right, somehow everything will work out okay for everyone.

And then I went back to my office and hid behind a stack of PC folders.

If you are in the church, you do it, too.  You say that you see something 
other than you what see -  you say it to yourself, and you don't say it to 
others.  You don't fully trust your partner or your children because you 
know that a Knowledge Report can come from there as easily as anywhere 
else.  In session, you think of something else and you don't tell your 
auditor.  You suppress disagreements so hard that you almost believe 
they're gone.  You know it's true.  You've given your power away and you're 
controlled by your fears, fears for yourself, fears for your family and 
friends.


So What Do You See?

No, I won't tell you what to see.  I'll tell you what I saw.

I saw scientology children living in the cadet org, with dirty clothes and 
hair, living with roaches, not ever being tucked in bed by their parents.

I saw people selling their homes and businesses for one more intensive.

I saw children disconnect from their parents, and parents from their 
children over scientology.

I saw staff members living below poverty level and eschewing such "MEST 
universe goals" as having a reasonable place to live because they had a 
"worthwhile purpose".

I saw those same staff members "servicing" the upstat public who had 
achieved the MEST universe success that the staff told themselves they 
didn't want or value.

I saw "scientology is for the able" in action.  Downstats (and everyone is 
downstat sometimes) weren't helped.  Upstats were helped.

I saw people punished with the tech that was supposed to help them: 7 and 
more drug rundowns, purif after purif  - never making any progress on The 
Bridge that they believed would deliver them.

I saw someone with integrity broken by days and weeks of word clearing, 
only to have the "misunderstood" corrected as a typo six months later.

I saw people recruited for staff who never should have been, who were 
promised auditing and training but never received them, and in the end were 
offloaded as downstats "quietly and without sorrow".

I saw people come for help and be turned away because they had seen 
psychologists.

I saw pcs routed out to earn more money for services.  Some I never saw 
again.  Some, I only saw their pc folders after they died, or committed 
suicide.

I saw my father die, alone and abandoned by his church, out of money for 
more NOTs.  A professional pc.

I saw PR instead of compassion.

I saw a world divided into upstats and disposable people called 
"suppressives", "DBs", and "downstats".  And I thought it was the best of 
all possible worlds.



How Scientology Makes OTs - The RPF

Look around you in the orgs and tell me if this seems true to you:  The 
most effective people in scientology aren't the public who paid for their 
auditing all the way to OT.  And they aren't the students in the 
academy.  The most effective people in scientology are those who survived 
the RPF.

What is it about the RPF?

It isn't standard auditing.  RPF members don't get * standard * 
auditing.  They're told to "read it, drill it, do it" and then they 
co-audit.  Their work hours and living conditions make it impossible to be 
sessionable, and yet they co-audit and get sessions.

It isn't standard training.  RPF courses and auditing are often canceled 
for the sake of urgent projects.  The "What Is a Course" PL is flagrantly 
out.

It isn't the safe environment.  RPFers are ostracized, given substandard 
living conditions, invalidated and disconnected from their family and 
friends.  They have only each other, and even then, confidences are 
dangerous (Knowledge Reports on the unthinkable thoughts).

So what is it about the RPF?  As Job said, "The thing I feared has come 
upon me."  Alone, ostracized from one's friends, family, and group, 
stripped of position in the organization, hungry, exhausted, degraded  with 
nothing to hold onto, a person is forced to recover her integrity and 
learns that she can survive on her will alone:

-       Without an external reason to live
-       Without a safe environment
-       Without friends or family
-       Without standard tech
-       Without admiration
-       Without hope


That's how scientology makes its OTs.


All You Have to Do Is Change Your Mind

I don't know how it would be for you if you left the church.  I don't even 
know if you are considering it. It's not an easy transition.  I *can* tell 
you what my life is like now.

My life has all the meaning that I put into it.  I have friends and family, 
no dearer to me than those I lost when I left the church, but no less dear 
either.  All the "standard tech" (and any other kind of tech you want) is 
available in the Free Zone.  I don't have to be scientologist to 
survive.  My life doesn't have to be an amends project.

Most important, I am as OT as I want to be, something I could not do in the 
church.

I hope we can talk soon.

Welcome to the Free Zone.