04/11/07 Wednesday 03:28am EST A THEORY OF SOVEREIGN DESIRE ((I swear to God, the being who wrote this is completely insane, and belongs in a psychiatric ward on prozac.)) A being consists of one operating fuction, causal conception. It creates in the mere conception of things. From his conception he creates two operating sub functions, desire and view. Desire is what he wants, and view is his conception of the Cosmic All. He thinks his view is learned, which allows it to persist, but in fact his view is created, and consists of the causal matrix of postulates and considerations that he is living in. A postulate is a posted beingingness, something he is putting there by conceiving of its existence. Consideration comes from con and side meaning to side together. A consideration relates two posted beingness to each other usually through causal influence. If A and B are two different posted beingnesses, then the idea that A causes B is a consideration that links the two of them together. The world is as he believes it to be, BECAUSE he believes it to be that way. But there is a twist, the world persists, because what he believes it to be is laced with lies. In your average being, desire and view are in conflict, what he wants, he thinks he can't have, and what he doesn't want, he thinks he has to have. Sure there will be somethings he wants that he can have, but for the most part, the vast majority of what he wants he is just sure will never be. And down deep in the very nature of his beingness is something he detests, he would never have wished it off on his worst enemy. He is BEING something he doesn't want to be, but thinks he must be it because it is HIM. For example it is very easy for a being to conceive of a goal that will take him 10 million years to complete. But if he is a meatball he has at most 90 years if he is lucky, and so that goal becomes impossible. Although ultimately desire takes precedence over view, he has desired to create a world where view takes precedence over desire, so if he thinks he can't have something, he can't have it, and he will blame it on something other than his belief. This allows it to persist, just as he wanted it to. Thus to understand a being the first question we must ask is what does he desire? The first thing that a being desires is Omni Sovereignty. Omni Sovereignty means, you want it, you got it. The next thing the being wants is to be able to sleep forever, and live for a while in cycles of unmanifestation and manifestation of his own design and the design of others (surprise). The next thing the being wants is majesty, to not be sovereign for a while. Majesty is the sovereign desire to not be sovereign for a while, and creates Jokes of Eternal Self Treason, and Justice of Eternal Self Truth, J.E.S.T. "The only kind Justice there is and the only Justice you will ever need forever for real is the humor that is aborned from getting the JOKE, this is Justice Of Kindship Excaliper. Thrill is always the effort to get lost, romance is always the effort to get home. High halcyon is humor on the verge (of time). The halcyon winds of summer heal the cold cruel wounds of winter." - Adore The world is majestic because the world is a majestic practical joke, suitable for a King of Kings, a Sovereign Omni Lord, an Omni Operating Lord God Almighty. "What is a Lord God Almighty? When you see one, you go "Lord God Almighty!" - Adore Now with sovereignty we have a problem, the being fundamentally exists in a matrix of the AllThatIs that already exists regardless of what the being thinks about it. In other words the AllThatIs doesn't exist BECAUSE someone thinks it exists, the AllThatIs exists because it exists. It didn't have to exist, there could have been just nothing forever for free, but by some quirk of luck, something exists instead of nothing. "The existence of a multi faceted operating actuality is self evident" - Sufi saying. That something, which exists, is a very rich and involved something, in that it consists of endless numbers of beings who can desire and create views which are then either aligned or counter to those desires. Now this something which exists could have been anything, hell it could have been a tar ball with beings embedded in it forever for free, screaming to die but not able to. So apparently we have been more than just a little lucky, in that not only does something exist, it is also *KIND*. "You seek the Grand Spring Phrases, And so shall you find, For the True Lies will free you, To Operate as you Kind." - Adore (As you kind means as you will, what you are kind to.) "The Kind Ship of a King is Kin-dom, Kind-dom and King-dom. Ship is the stately ship of your life and Kin-dom is kin, or anyone we Kind. Kind-dom is the domain of operating Kindness, the rules of play, and King-dom is the domain of the land, the playing field." - Adore Now here is where the problem comes in, a sovereign being can have what it wants just by wanting it. But what about the pre existing matrix in which the being exists that the being's desires had nothing to do with creating? Does it match the being's desires? Does the being find the world it is born into as native state, desirable? If the being is going to have perfect sovereignty, then it is going to be necessary that the being's fundamental desires are in perfect alignment with the nature of the already existing AllThatIs, so that even though the being is not creating the AllThatIs with its desire, it might as well have. Are the being's desires in perfect ACCORD with the WHAT IS? One can well ask here, well the being's desire did not shape the nature of (fundamental) existence. So of all the things that could have existed, and all the desires a being could have had, why are they in perfect accord? Does the being desire what exists merely because existence came about first, and out of some kindness or happenstance, made itself desirable to the being? Did we just luck out? Could it even be possible for an existence to exist with beings in it whose desire was not in accord with the nature of that existence? Woe to such beings, for they would be forever discontent at the nature of the AllThatIs in dischord with what they most fundamentally wanted. Their desire would not be sovereign because they would desire one thing, and have something else. They would conceive of a better place, and not have it in the mere conception of it. Notice if one believes it is IMPOSSIBLE for an existence to spawn beings whose desires are NOT in accord with fundamental truth, then the mere fact that one detests mortality means it is not true, for if it were true, no one would care. So in this case, the DESIRE to be eternal implies we are. Surely to have a universe that was not in accord with the being's fundamental desires would be an eternal hell of magnitude. Mortals are this way, they don't WANT to be mortal after all, but there they are, incipient carrion on the future near track. So their view is not in accord with their desire. But only a sovereign being would play such game of apparent nightmare FOR A WHILE. Kind of like going to a horror show on Friday night so you can cuddle closer to your baby. And in fact this unaccordance between desire and view IS the primary theme of all such nightmares. What is, is not what I want. One might argue, well I could FIGHT for what I want and maybe I would win it, but you would still be sour about having had to fight to win it in the first place. Oh yeah a lot of meatballs will tell you how great it is to die and make room for the next guy, but that ain't sanity talking, that's sour grapes at best, zombie zoning at worst. "Love is all we know of heaven, and death all we need of hell." - Emily Dickinson. Any one even vaguely alive in the head will tell you that death is a nightmare, that they will NEVER have time enough for love, and they would certainly choose to be eternal if they could just sleep as long as they wanted to between cycles of manifestation which would never be more than finite whiles. The real question they have to face is if they WERE eternal would they ever *FAIR CHOOSE* to engage in dreams of death forever for free? Being eternal is easy, its this dying stuff that's hard. And then once they have handled that question, they can start in on would they fair choose dreams of hell forever (for a while). And once they have handled both questions to E/P and have regained appreciation for and facility with creating dreams of ludicrous demise for themselves and others, why hell, send them a bill and get on with the next meatball in line. Send them a large bill. People who have cleared this stuff for real won't have much need for possessions, but they will be more than able to have possessions, and probably more than their fair share. They will be able to pay for it. Mortals are kind of funny. You know alcoholics and drug addicts start to hallucinate bugs crawling under their skins? Well that's just millions of GE deaths coming up for show. GE means the Genetic Entity, each body is made of zillions of them. What a joke eh? The mortal meatball suffers from endless numbers of past track death engrams which he uses to convince himself that when he's dead, he's dead, and that's it Bud! "You see I am dead 150,000 times, how much more dead can I be? Do you believe me now?" There is an old saying, only death can kill you. So if the guy is dying from his case, I mean can't breath, can't sleep, can't get up in the morning, highest goals are suicide which apparently exceeds his abilities, or being bug food, or he has dreams of bugs and babes in endless cycles, and things a lot worse and better, then you know he is dying of *DEATH*. He has a super charged case on the subject of DEATH and only auditing death and its prior hell forevers will relieve him of his dying. You might want to run: "Who or what do you still want to murder?" "What apology has been refused/withheld?" On the other hand you might want to continue reading. By the way if the bug picker just sat back and relaxed about the bugs, the little buggers would all fall off him. Then he can graduate up to the snakes and parasites and black evil things from hell that no words can describe. Don't worry be happy, they can only stick to flinch and cringe. Christians are the same way as mortals, their desire and view are totally opposed. They don't really want people to go to hell forever, but they won't ever admit it openly because they are afraid their God will nail them for malservience. But down deep they know their God is an asshole, and that provides them then with the game of trying to be better than their God. The law of nobility however guarantees they will fail. "No man will ever strive to be more noble than the nobility of the universe he conceives created him." - Adore. Thus anyone who believes he was made by an asshole, is fated to become an asshole. That explains a lot. Love can not exist in an absence of respect and admiration. So just understanding this one idea that one's desire is in perfect accord with the fundamental truths of the AllThatIs, even if one doesn't quite believe it for the moment, goes a long ways towards understanding how to reoperate being an OT again. The being has come a long ways down from knowing what those fundamental truths are. In fact if you simply took everything the guy believed, and reversed most of them, you would have a pretty good glimpse of top scale. I say this because anything the guy believed that was actually TRUE wouldn't persist long enough to have a half life worth recording. I mean he would have to kind of dredge it up out of some primal memory "Oh yeah love, respect and admiration form a triangle called putting it there, if one goes out the tubes, all go out the tubes." A second later, poof, its gone, he is back to reality again. Thus we find that for sovereignty to exist, the AllThatIs at the top must be in perfect accord with itself, or else it would forever be trying to conceive itself different or even out of existence and failing forever for free. The AllThatIS is what it desires, and desires what it is. Thus the being can have exactly what it wants, even though the pre existing matrix of fundamental truths, don't exist BECAUSE the being wants them. He simply lucks out because he has them anyhow and they fit his grand plan just fine when he first wakes up. "Woah, way cool, such am I!" This also means that what exists now of created things, exists because it was WANTED. Thus trying to get rid of it without first finding how and why it was desirable, won't ever work. In scientology are taught that to vanish any created thing of existence we must create a perfect duplicate of it, and it will vanish when we let go of creating it again. The perfect duplicate duplicates not only WHAT was created where, when and by who, but WHY, the original purpose, the aesthetic motivation. How was it born of a sovereign desire that this abomination spreads now across the universe? What holds created things in existence, is the top level edge of beauty, humor and desirability, the aesthetics of ludicrous demise. Beauty, humor and desirability are the pins that hold the veil to the curtain rod. It's one great big smile. "High appreciation for ludicrous demise" - Adore. Thus not only does the AllThatIs exist, but it is happy it exists. In fact the AllThatIs is so happy with itself, it is at utter peace with itself. This is the High Cool of Adore, and the peace that passeth all understanding of the Christians. But this same AllThatIS fancies creating abominations that could freeze the heart of the Infinite. The being can go to sleep forever and know that when it wakes up, it will be nothing but fun from beginning to end until the next time it wants to sleep, but sometimes it likes to detour into the darkside of existence for a while. But now we come to the next problem with sovereignty, clearly the being does not have what he wants in present time. However sovereignty can not be lost, changed, created or destroyed. Sovereignty is eternally immutable. There can be a sovereign desire to not be sovereign for a while, but the resulting non sovereignty can only happen as an apparency. We can APPARENTLY be mortal, but not ACTUALLY be mortal. We can APPARENTLY be in hell forever, but not ACTUALLY be in hell forever. Eventually the ovens run out of gas and meatball grease, hell freezes over, the while ends, everyone wakes up, and all are free to leave, high fiving each other as long lost best friends. Just so we can APPARENTLY be non sovereign, but never actually lose our sovereignty. Thus sovereignty is operating at all times. But if sovereignty is having what we want, and we don't have what we want in present time, then we must WANT to not have what we want! *FOR A WHILE*. If you don't put that 'for a while' in there, you won't ever be able to span the downsides of your lives and those of others. Doing this for a while is bad enough, doing it forever is unconscionable. And the AllThatIs simply is not capable of doing the unconscionble. I suppose that most people would say, well hell something bad doesn't have to go on FOREVER to be unconscionable, and if beings were finite mortal victims of something else's cause, they would be right. If you understand all of everything is being done by an INFINITE multi being TO ITSELF as an apparently finite but FAIRCHOSEN creature that is really still infinite anyhow, well then the equation of what is unconscionable or not comes out to say that ANYTHING is fair in love and war FOR A WHILE no matter what. And that is all the more true because there is always that CHOICE in there between native state and manifestation. That means that if I want some pretty girl, but I can't have her, then I must also NOT want to have her in opposition to my desire to have her. Now most people don't think this way, its way too close to an as-isness, and preserving the game is all too important. I mean what fun is there in getting laid? Much more fun to mope. Beautiful sorrow. So when the girl gives them the snoot, they just consider they can't have her, but still want her. Thus they live with the idea that their desire is not sovereign. "You can't always have what you want." Run R3SC. This illusion can only continue as long as the being refuses to acknowledge the WANT NOT that is preventing the girl from being interested in him. He desires to be desired (by her), but he is also denying his sovereign desire to NOT be desired, and thus he continues with the problem of the girl not desiring him. So what happens when two sovereign desires collide with each other? The being gets stuck in a ridge, with him *APPARENTLY* only on one side of it, the side he is aware of. This is the victim side. His side can be the desire side or the not desire side, but in either case he is unaware of the other side, the 'villain' side. Thus the ridge persists and the problem is never resolved. Desire often manifests as pulling in, trying to get, and not desire manifests as pushing out, trying to get rid of. But the other side of the ridge will have a pulling out or pushing in to balance the being's apparent known desire and its efforts. The others side of the ridge is called the hidden counter desire. This is the desire and its efforts that oppose the apparent known desire of the being. Thus there are 4 possible combinations of pull and push. Inside Outside Apparent desire Counter desire 1.) Pulling in <--------- ---------> Pulling out 2.) Pulling in <--------- <--------- Pushing in 3.) Pushing out ---------> <--------- Pushing in 4.) Pushing out ---------> ---------> Pulling out. 1 and 3 above form solid ridges where the arrows meet, 2 and 4 form cave ins and cave outs, for the being is being helped in his efforts to have and not have by he knows not what. In 1.) he wants to pull the girl in, but the girl wants to pull away. In 2.) he wants to pull the girl in, and the girl is pushing herself in on him ferociously. In 3.) he wants to push the girl away, but the girl is still trying to push herself off on him. In 4.) he wants to push the girl away, and the girl can't wait to get out of there. Now this is extremely heavy material. Thus there is that which exists independent of the being's sovereign desire but which matches it exactly anyhow, and then there is everything else that becomes created by the being which matches the being's sovereign desire by definition, including his matrix of self oppositions. Thus is formed the sovereign desire sandwich, the being is caught between those things that exist forever which he wants, and those things which exist for a while (temporally) which he wants. He doesn't have to worry about changing the eternal things because they can't be changed, and they are fine as they are anyhow, but he can change the temporal things any time he chooses and knows how. He looses his knowledge of how to change things by choice, and he regains it by choice because when he chose to lose it, he set himself up again to regain it. He can also just regain it by prime postulate, but just so, he can also just lose it by prime postulate. Prime postulates happen in the middle of a game 'for no reason'. This is as he wishes it to be. It adds randomity to the mix. One's wisdom ebbs and flows with the layout of the game. He really begins to lose it however when he tries to make a while last forever, in order to make up for the loss of direct eternality. How much charge does a being create when he believes he is mortal? A finite amount of temporal charge, but an infinite amount of eternal charge. The reason that temporal charge is finite is because charge is created by loss, violation of sovereign desire. All in-time events are finite in scope and if you were to lose all of it, it would still be a finite loss. However eternal charge is infinite, because loss of an eternity is loss not only of a direct and present infinity, it is also loss of an infinite number of finite whiles, temporalities, in the past and future of the being which he could have manifested in that eternality! In other words eternity engages in endless cycles of whiles. Although each while is finite, there have been and will continue to be a infinite number of whiles to engage in. The being is utterly 'new' at the beginning of each while, so he doesn't accumulate mass across eternity to eventually sink him. There is mass enough in each while to sink anyone for a long time. Thus loss of eternality creates a double whammy, an infinite loss of itself (unimpingable peace), and loss of an infinite number of whiles (unpeaceable impingement). That's a lot of girl friends and love he won't have ever again once he dies one day as a mortal. Talk about sad. But the joke is, this is all exactly as he wants it, and he knows it. Down deep he knows it, but he wonders, because now he has lost sight of what causes all this loss to persist, again by intent, through fair chosen operation of majesty. Now there is no cause in the past, because sovereignty can only act in the now, and there is no cause in the future, because sovereignty can only act in the now. And there is no other cause beyond him, because if there were it was conceived and invited in to play in his own dream by his own sovereignty in the past, and STILL IS in the now. "Gee wouldn't it be nice if there were some other cause..." That's called an invite. Wham, he gets it in the conception of it, that's omni sovereignty operating extending an invite to others to come in to play, in his dream. A long time later you find him at religious insanity, "Who or what is cause around here and why is it such an asshole!" - Adore Thus if the guy has something he doesn't want NOW, there MUST be a desire NOW that he have something he doesn't want now. And you thought you were schizophrenic. This is normal operation for the AllThatIs. The two opposing desires produce a ridge which sticks him in a continuing persisting state of not having what he wants and having what he doesn't want. Notice he doesn't have an UTTER void of girls in his life, just an unsatisfactory number of them, thus these two desires are in balance, to have girls and to not have girls, and they are crushing him out of existence to just that degree. It can get a lot worse if the counter desire becomes stronger, or it can get better if the counter desire starts to as-is. This process is called game tuning. THE WISDOM IS THAT ALL THERE IS TO TUNE IS ONE'S COUNTER DESIRE. Fortunately one's counter desire is DESIRED, that's why it is there, and if one can contact one's DESIRE to oppose themselves, they can change or retune that opposition. hell you don't want those girls just throwing themselves at you as you pass them by in the street, courting girls is fun too, you see? That's called optimum chase, and when a being finally steps into a state of optimum chase for even moment, it is an interstellar experience beyond words, as a fully responsible creator/creature. "Yes, now THIS I can fair choose!" Now you might ask if he wanted all this ludicrous demise, why would he change it even if he could? Well if he really still wants it, he won't change it, but he will have to forget how to change it in order to maintain the status quo because MERE AWARENESS OF HOW IT WORKS WILL START TO UNDO AND CHANGE IT. You got that? MERE AWARENESS. Unfortunately as he bubbles upward he will run into unspeakable tar and death on wheels, because they are above his present state of decline. He will THINK he is getting worse, but a being who can create himself as death on wheels is way better off that being who can't, even if the second being feels 'good' all day long. Don't let the false high fool you, once a being can create himself as death on wheels, he will be able to create highs that will burn your eyes out. The solution to the problems of Majesty is mere awareness of Majesty. Reoperation (perfect dupliation) of Majesty is sufficient solution to any problem of Majesty. "Power stems from operating majesty." - Adore Because that's what majesty does, and what power is for, to create jokes of ludicrous demise. Power is originally used to create limitations, but as-isness of that power and its majestic intent will discreate those same limitations. As long as he is going 'Majesty, what majesty?' he will continue as he is. But the moment he goes 'Oh Majesty, right, gulp...' it will start to come apart. Now there is a lot to come apart, and if he bolts during the process he might kill himself dead from a heart attack or brain annurism, so you really got to be competent with this material. Reality has got you mad as hell and all murderously wound up about the AllThatIs, and you let that out in an uneven flow and it will cripple you and toss you around the room, and leave your body lying inside out on the floor. So how do we run this? Well its so simple its just too stupid to contemplate. The guy has a condition. A condition results from a failed desire of some sort. The guy doesn't realize that HE has a counter desire to keep the condition in place. The condition was created to gain cooperation from others who were enforcing or inhibiting him taking responsibility for and over things, that he didn't want to. They are an attempt to enforce and inhibit OTHERS taking responsibility for and over him! Prior to that, these created nasty conditions were a way to enforcing and inhibiting him taking responsibility for and over himself. It's old, and big, the kind of thing King of Kings like to do to themselves when they are bored, so first thing the guy has to do is encompass the enormity of the desire represented by the condition, and then the enormity of the countering majestic desire keeping him at bay. That way he goes from one small being, to two times a big being, you see? Now look the condition isn't usually killing him, its probably just crippling him, so he has these two desires finely in balance. If he gets just the slightest peek at the majesty of the countering desire, the opposing force will ameliorate just a bit and he will be able to stand up just that much taller without cowering at life, or even himself! "Gawd am I scary!..." Keep auditing this and he will probably reach a place where the condition is comfortable again for him, he's quite happy to have it, not quite ready to do without it, because hey he created it for a reason, paid a lot for its design, and he will start auditing some other condition that is cramping his style long before the first condition is completely gone. After a while, his constellation of 'conditions' will be released enough all around, that he can get up and play again, the future becomes his toy rather than the other way around, and he will start to lose conditions completely, like scabs falling off wounds that have healed when you don't notice. If he's still picking at the scab, it needs more auditing and he will come back to it in time. So how do you run this. Now look I meant what I said above, if you have never had a heart attack, this will give you one. If you stop running when the pain turns on, it will crush you dead. If you have any rabbit genes (to run away) in your genetic makeup, get someone else to run this on you, don't solo it. When the pain turns on, YOU MUST CONTINUE RUNNING THE OTHER SIDE OF THE RIDGE, THEN THE FIRST SIDE, THEN THE OTHER SIDE. You will figure it out eventually, the pain will get even keel as you swap back and forth in proper tempo with the thing running out. Getting in tempo and sync with the flows are important. Get too far behind or too far ahead and the pain will turn on warning you of your error. If your heart starts pounding, fast inbreaths, and *VERY* slow outbreaths will keep you alive until it subsides. Maybe. And watch out for ANDS, sometimes you have to run both sides of the ridge at the same time! Fear is like a pool of water, Resist and it eats you and you forget who and what you are, never to return. Dive in and the fear turns to pleasure waves. "Who do you still want to murder?" "Has an apology been refused?" OK, so here is the process in all its silly glory. Spot a condition, hopefully a serious one, one that has NEVER changed in forever no matter how much auditing you have had. You don't care about the squeeze-me-nots on your face, but perhaps that back ache you have had for how long will do. Get the feeling of your desire to get rid of the condition. Get the feeling of your desire to have the condition. That's it. Don't get into significances, you don't care WHY you want or don't want something, you don't even care what it is you want or don't want, you won't know for a long time anyhow, if you think you know you are probably wrong, you will just be limiting the scope of the process. The *CONDITION* is the symptom of mishandling the desire ridge, of pushes and pulls, struggling like crazy against something you can never win against. Driving desire into your self in this way will ruin the heart of anyone. Just spot the condition. Get the FEELING OF DESIRE TO NOT HAVE THE CONDITION. Let it flow, watch the collisions, notice the movement, the crashing of forces. GET THE FEELING OF THE DESIRE TO HAVE THE CONDITION. It's ok if you can't, just get the IDEA there is a desire to have the condition, lord knows what it might be, you don't care. Let it flow, watch the collisions, notice the movement, worship the pain that turns on, it means its working. As the pain gets worse, GET THE FEELING OF THE DESIRE TO NOT HAVE THE CONDITION. Back and forth until the pain subsides and the whole scene loosens up for you. If alternating does not work, run it as an AND. GET THE DESIRE TO HAVE THE CONDITION AND NOT HAVE THE CONDITION AT THE SAME TIME FOREVER FOR FREE. Then take a breather, pat yourself on the back, you just operated your God Hood. So much for proof. 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