THE DESCENT OF A BEING Part 1.

     THE DESCENT OF A BEING Part 2.
     http://www.clearing.org/archive?/homer/adore549b.memo

     A being has a hard time staying in any particular space time game
stream.  This is because he retains awareness of his intention to enter
and partake, aware of his own invitation to himself to be where he is.

     One distraction, he takes his attention off his creation, and the
dream is gone.

     The only way to stay in a while for long is to forget that one
chose to enter, and become quite sure that one had nothing to with
entering.  
 
     This creates a violation of sovereign desire, a hysteria to get out
and to never come in again.

     This suffices to keep one in, which was what was intended, to stay
in.

     The vector to come in assumes one is out.

     The vector to get out assumes one is in.

     One can not become cause by being an effect, and one can not get
out by pre postulating that one is in.

     So should one be apathetic about being stuck in?

     No of course not, he WANTS to be stuck in.  He doesn't need to get
out, he needs to recover his desire to be in.

     Then of course he will get out :)
 
     One does not audit being stuck in, one audits WANTING to be stuck
in for a while.

     This isn't meant to twist your brain, trying to stay in is what
twists your brain, because the only way to stay in is to postulate that
you ARE IN but want to be out.

     Being out is easy, being in is almost heart breakingly impossible.

     Look what you had to do to yourself just to stay in.

     Thus if you are having a hard time getting out, you are up against
how almost impossible it was to stay in.

     The problem lies with intent.  The guy WANTS in, so one doesn't
audit him on his screaming to get out, because if you do he may get out
to his dismay, and then he will just want in again.

     He won't in fact let this happen, to keep him in session you have
to audit him on being better able to stay in WITHOUT getting out.

     *THAT* is his problem.

     He SAYS he wants out, what he means is he wants to stay in
in for a while without getting out before he is ready.

     THAT is what he wants 'out' of, the inability to stay in and NOT
get out for a while.

     The reason he can't just postulate he is out, is because OUT WANTS
TO COME IN AND STAY IN FOR A WHILE.

     In order to stay in he has decided that being in at all let alone
for a while is the worst possible thing, so he isn't going to allow
himself to do ANYTHING that might get him in again, including get out.

     The truth is the more he dives in, the more out he will be, he will
be diving further in FROM a further out starting point, and will be
operating both being out and coming in at the same time with a very wide
span between them.
 
     The more he tries to dive in deeper, the more out his starting
point will be.  

     Get it?

     Thus getting out is just a dive away.

     That is very different than being collapsed in, wanting to get out,
and not being able to.

     Instead, once clear, he will be staying in on a create, create,
create being in, rather than on a stuck in persisting like a rock
wanting out.
 
     Once he is in, and wants out, he is facing the wrong way (out) to
get out, and thus he becomes more stuck in while facing out.

     Wanting out says you aren't out!

     That's called a prepostulation.

     Bye bye freedom.
 
     Prepostulate:  I am in.
     Postulate:     I want out.
     Question:      How come I can't get out?
     Answer:        God knows, some wrong why.
     Right answer:  Because you are postulating you are in.

     What should I do?  Let go of the postulate that you are in
here, and make another postulate you are in somewhere else.

     Oh no, he says, I never want to be in again, ever, ever, ever
FOREVER!

     But that is what out does, it comes in, like ocean waves or the
tides, they go out, they come in, they go out, they come in.
 
     He is so busy trying to not ever come in again, he can't go out,
because once he is out, he WILL choose to come in again.

     Unless of course he doesn't for a while.  :)

     THE WAY IN IS THE WAY OUT.

     Wanting in says you are out.

     Wanting in PUTS you out.

     Desire and its concomitant postulates are CAUSE.

     Just consider the Chinese finger trap.

     Once in, the freedom he seeks is the freedom from his tendency to
want and move in again.  He wants OUT!

     But the minute you try to pull out, the chinese finger trap closes
down tight around you and keeps you in.

     The effort to pull out is what causes the weave to close
down tight around your finger so it can't get out.

     Just so the prepostulate that you ARE in, prevents you
from pulling out.  
 
     That is how powerful postulates are if you
aren't aware you are making them, and that you WANTED originally
to be in.

     It is in large part the denial of repsonsibility for wanting
to come in and then coming in, that makes getting out a VERY SERIOUS
problem indeed for him, and it is that 'I hate this being in and
can't get out stuff forever for free, Grrrr!' that powers the closing
down of the stuck inness via the prepostulate that that he is in.

     If he would just contact that prepostulate and his DESIRE to
be in and stuck in FOR A WHILE, the whole thing would loosen up
and he would start to float out again.

     But instead he has lost sight of the CAUSE for him being in,
and he has CURSED FOREVER FOR FREE what he conceives that cause
to be that put him in, and that puts him BELOW the power level
of his choice to come in, and he can't chose to get out.

     Coming is the act of a God, only the same power level will
get him out AFTER he ceases the act of coming in.  
 
     You see how stupid this is, he is IN because of his own postulate
that he is in, if he lets go of that by taking full responsibility for
it, he will BE OUT, because there would be no cause left to put him in!
 
     Out is the default causeless state.

     So if he is now trying to CAUSE getting out, he is fighting
cause to come in with cause to get out, and that just forms a solid
ridge and will never work.  
 
     Its a ridge of cause against cause, and guess which one wins?

     The first one!

     He can't cause himself to stop causing himself to come in.
 
     He can simply ceasing causing to come in, you see the difference?
 
     Crucifixion results from wanting out because you don't want in.

     If you just want in, maybe even somewhere else, you would be out
enough to make that move.

     It is the flinch of wanting out that turns pleasure to pain, beauty
to ugly, and light into stone.

     Why else would anyone WANT to get out?

     Being in, trying to get out and failing, is the definition of
misery.

     Ecstasy is the joy of having a hard time staying in because you
want in so much.

     There was a beauty to coming in.

     The being WANTS to get stuck in, he wants it on automatic, he WANTS
the game and mystery of where am I, how did I get here, and how the hell
do I make sure I never return?

     Ever.

     He loves that nightmare to pieces, surely more than his present
girl friend.

     He has to be in to HAVE that girl friend, don't you see?

     The only way he can stay in without waking up every time he
sneezes, is to want to get out and NEVER come back.  

     The FOREVER/NEVER has to be part of his consideration
about getting out and never coming back.

     Just thinking such thoughts of forever gives him the willies, it
gives him the idea that he will be stuck FOREVER being in, and so he
wants to be stuck FOREVER to be out just to be safe from ever
coming in again.

     It's the forever that makes it work along with the mystery of why
he is in that kills his responsibility, his invite to himself to be in,
and thus turns him around so he is looking to get out, which sticks him
in.

     How does a being change himself from wanting to be in, to being so
desperate to get out he that he can't?

     He adds the significance of FOREVER/NEVER to something, anything,
and that adds a chill over everything that freezes him in, as he is now
unwilling to be in or out.
 
     "I love you forever!"

     You see that's a forever in time.

     *ANY* forever in time makes him fear being in so much, he never
wants to be in any more.

     But the last time he was OUT, he came in, so what good is being
OUT?
 
     Is he going to learn a lesson about the dangers of coming in and
never do that again?

     But being out forever is just another forever, which he detests by
sovereign nature, and besides how many lessons can you learn until they
sink you like a stone around your neck to the bottom of the sea?

     Lessons are always of the form:

     This must never/always happen again, therefore

     I must always/never do that again!

     LOOKING

     Looking out puts you in.

     Looking in puts you out.

     A thetan can only stick to the bottom of the tone scale, so when he
first comes in, he dives for the bottom real hard in the hopes he will
stick and stay awhile.
 
     Top level (divine, non human) beauties and uglies about doing this,
cement the stick.

     The primary beauty causing the stick is the mechanism he
uses to stick in.

     The minute he comes in (drenched in the beauty of it all), he has
to turn it around (drenched in the horror of forevers) and claim he wants
out.  
 
     Then he can stay in trying to get out for the rest of time, sinking
further in all the while.

     This works like a charm and a dream, no pun intended.

     And that's a good thing.

     The minute he tries to stay in because he recreates the incoming
beauties, uglies, seriousnesses and humors, he will get out.

     But he will have lost his game.  
 
     Remember havingness is in games.

     He has swapped the game of trying to come in and not being able to
stay, with trying to get out and not being able to leave.

     If he does figure it out and finally gets out via eagerness to come
in, he won't be happy, as he will have lost his dream and co action with
all his friends still in the dream.

     Oh man is that sad.

     It's like leaving EVERYONE behind FOREVER.

     And you are the ONLY ONE who knows the secret, and if you do
leave and never come back, maybe some of your friends who are
still in will NEVER figure it out.

     Eternal peace just can't make up for it.  Well maybe...

     So let's summarize.

     A being wanting to get out because being in is too horrible to
contemplate, will be stuck in because his postulate that he IS in is
cause.

     A being wanting to get in, will keep falling out, because his
postulate that he IS out is cause, unless he can quickly turn it around
into wanting to get out once he is in.

     THE WALL OF FIRE

     This is the original 'wall of fire' at the entrance to universes.

     The Wall of Fire was originally a Wall of Beauty, but after he
crossed to the other side of the wall he turned it into a Wall of Ugly
so he could stay on the wrong side of the wall for a while.

     He came in and on the inside the 'Wall of Fire' was his wish to get
out forever more and NEVER come back.

     Trying to get out, he sank below the Wall of Fire and is now a
"What Wall?" case.

     The Wall of Fire remains a NO EVENT until he honestly tries to come
in again and be here.  
 
     Then watch out.

     He thinks he wants to get out but this desire gets its power from
the original desire to come in and stay for as long as possible.

     Whiles can be as long as he can devise to keep around, there is no
upper limit (unlimited) to how long a while can be, but they are always
finite in final length.

     Unlimited but always finite.

     That's called an unlimited finiteness, or a finite unlimitedness.

     That is not a contradiction, he can have as many marbles as he
wants and he can keep increasing them, but he can't have an INFINITE
number of marbles.

     That's because no matter how clever a being might be, any while he
creates will always unravel in the end, making way for a new while to be
created in Eternity (native state) when the being wants to.

     A while can be extended and extended and extended, but no being can
keep a while around forever.

     For one its physically impossible and for two, its totally against
the being's sovereign desire, which is what is orchestrating these
whiles in the first place.

     No one would ever WANT to create an infinite while in time.

     AUDITING

     All auditing is never in the direction of getting out, but in the
direction of recovering his desire, willingness and ability to come in,
TO BE HERE.  Then he is free again to stick himself in or out as he
desires in the future.

     The more he can charge in with out flinching, the more out he will
become whether he wants to be out or not.

     Recovery of the ability to get out depends on recovery of the
sovereign DESIRE AND MASTERY of the intention to come in.

     Particularly the divine aesthetics and motivation to do so.

     I don't know, hanging on crosses may be an aquired taste, but a
taste it is.

     Coming in puts one out, as one has to be out in order to come in.
 
     Whether one stays out depends on whether one changes one's mind
about coming in after getting out.

     One can stay out and go do something else, but in general most
don't.  
 
     Many have gotten out so many times they have threatened to kill
themselves FOREVER if they get out again.

     But in truth they get out just to come in again, even into the same
damn joint they just got out from, locking the door even harder every
time.

     It's just too sad to leave one's friends behind.

     People think that getting out is worth something, maybe everything.
 
     Truth is staying in and enjoying it here is worth more.

     Much more.

     "Tragedy and travesty, romance and sin, miracles and majesty,
that's where I've been.

     Miracles in majesty, romance and song, tragedy and travesty, that's
where I've gone." - Adore

     It's just so sad to escape back to total peace and safety while all
one's glorious friends are still in the dream called Hell and High
Water.  
 
     Even the bastard friends.  

     You love them the most, 
 
     They make it worthwhile.
 
     They gave you a reason to come in and fight evil to the death.

     "Safety is hell and high water via eternal omni awesome peace."

     The being thinks he is trying to get to peace via hell and high
water, when in truth he is trying to get to hell and high water via the
power of eternal omni awesome peace.

     DANGER and SAFETY
 
     If wanting to come in puts you out, just how dangerous can coming
in be?

     The being can't get lost, can't go anywhere, can't be destroyed,
what greater safety can there be then, regardless of what nightmare he
is engaged in at the time?

     These dreams however are only for a while, very long whiles, but
never forever in time.

     Hell forever is a violation of sovereign desire, a violation of
eternal friendship with self, others and the AllThatIs, and with CAUSE.

     FRIENDSHIP AND ACCEPTANCE

     When they say God loves you, at a minimum that means God accepts
you unconditionally, no criticism at all.

     God is friendship.

     We all are God in canartion, so really God loves himself

     All wars are with your friends, your brothers and sisters.

     Disownership FOREVER of a family member, no matter how badly they
have behaved, is the only crime.

     Disownership is rejectance.

     Rejectance forever is the opposite of acceptance forever, and so
that is God rejecting a part of himself forever.

     A part that is eternally irredeemable.

     You think God judges himself this way?

     Ludicrous no?

     God can create and take on some nasty roles, and laudable roles,
but the quality of the STORY depends on the existence of both.

     The quality of the being is measured by the quality of the story
that he weaves.  
 
     So whether it is good or evil, it is only for a while so get on
with it, the audience is getting bored again.

     The unrighteousness of the bad, and the righteousness of the good
are both laughable in the light of the divine strange, of divine
aesthetics.

     That is not a human beauty, that is an eternal magnificence that is
quite beyond most human's conception until they 'see the light'.

     The goodness and badness of God, of the High US, exceeds even our
own imagination, acceptance, rejectance, beauty, ugly, surprise, humor,
and peace levels.
 
     The final peace of native state would scare the day lights out of
a normal human being.

     He is terrified he will fall into it, like the arms of
some cosmic mother, and never return.

     Why would he want to?

     But Eternity has the ability to choose, free choice that it is.

     And a free choice can choose to choose or choose to not choose,
no telling.

     And given an eternity, I wouldn't bet on when the guy will choose
to choose (manifest) again.

     Anyhow your average human come face to face with the eternal void
of potential says

     "What, I have been praying to that?"

     Being's only love what they can move to fight with them.
 
     The eternal peace of God can't be moved.

     The Static invokes the kinetic, the kinetic can not invoke the
static.

     Unless of course the being is being the static inside the kinetic
as an envessled conscious unit.

     ENVESSELMENT
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     But then if the being is aleady being the static, what need does he
have to invoke the static?

     He should invoke more kinetic because that is what static's do.

     Thus we get upset with God and our fellow man (same thing), and try
to separate from them forever.

     Make them not be, never have been, and never will be again.
 
     This is our only hell.

     Trying to make nothing of too much good or too much bad forever.

     The being is friends with his nightmare, this is the goal of
auditing, to restore that friendship, but not so much that he wakes up
and ceases fighting entirely.

     If he's gone from the world he can't pay you.

     ARTFUL DODGE

     So the fall of the being from the top to the bottom is well
designed, and well arted.

     Adore calls it artful dodge.

     "The Source of all suffering is the fair chosen Adore-Operation of
Cool, Class, Halcyon, SinSong, Thrill and Romance, via Living Majestic
Intelligence and Proud Fancy Free Faithlessness of Grand and Excalibur
Design."

     Adore-Operation simply means operating adoration.

     Suffering means not wanting to be here.
 
     Fair chosen means you desired and chose it with full awareness of
the possible consequences, in general if not in specific.

     Desire is sovereign.  Sovereign means you want it, you got it.

     Adoration is operation, if you adore something, operate it.

     If you abhor something, don't operate it.

     But you can adore abhoration, for without abominations to abhor,
you will have nothing to fight, nothing to do.

     To operate means to make go, to put into action.

     High Cool is Eternal Omni Awesome Peace.

     High Anti-Cool is suffering.

     Majesty is eternal good humor born of mastery of songs of sin and
hidden joy.

     Majesty is the sovereign desire that desire not be sovereign for a
while, this is the impulse of the Imp soul towards humor, master of
jest and denial or disbelief in his own responsibility for his and
everyone else's condition.

     Hey it was a unanimous choice to come in.

     We chose to choose, and we chose to choose more, and we chose that
ALL should choose.

     J.O.Y means J.O.K.E's on you.

     J.O.K.E. means Justice Of Kindship Excaliper.

     Humor is the only kind justice there is, and the only justice you
will ever need, forever for real.

     J.E.S.T means Jokes   of Eternal Self Treason.
     J.E.S.T means Justice of Eternal Self Truth.

     Class is an attitude that all should live forever and be my friend
(outside of time.)

     SinSong is to sing another Source done wrong song, SinSong is not
sin as long as it is just song.  
 
     This is the story (song) written by the Author, to whom it is
always just song until he incarnates HIMSELF as character who takes it
seriously to heart and comes to curse the Author (sin).

     Thrill is the effort to get lost.

     Romance is the effort to get home.

     Eternal Home is Home, Lost is Time.

     Eternal Home is Cool, Lost is Kind.

     Well it had better be, because what else are you going
to fight evil with?

     Miracle is the undreamed dream come true.  
 
     The soul just didn't see this one coming, even though he invented
it, and can't have it because it's too good to be true.

     Halcyon is bemused relief on the verge of time.

     Pride is agent, pride is vision of potential because pride is
source of potential.  
 
     They never told you that one.  
 
     Pride is the raw quality of the fabric of existence.

     Fancy free faithlessness is faithlessness allowed to run wild
without restraint of the fancy (imagination).

     Doubt of sovereignty is self casting.

     Caliber is the worth of souls.

     Calipers measure caliber.

     The caliper of the caliber of souls is the questions they have
asked and the answers they have rejected.

     Excaliber means without worth.

     Excaliper means without measure, worth beyond measure.

     Justice of caliber is kindship Excaliper.

     In a world where someone must hurt, all need is for justice of
excaliper kindship.

     Humor is the only kind justice you will ever need, for ever for
real.  
 
     This thing ain't called a religion for nothing.

     Excalibur is the two edge sword of excaliber and excaliper, and all
other operating dicoms in existence.

     The sword is stuck in the star rock of your mind by your own
present time operational wizardry.

     A wizard is anyone who is a wiz with the sword.

     A King is anyone who can free and wield the sword of Excalibur for
themselves and for others.

     King Arthur was able to pull the sword from the rock because he was
willing to put it back in again so that o thers might try.
 
     The others were not so willing and so couldn't pull the sword out
at all."

     Willingness to come in, to BE HERE, puts you out.

     From Adore.

     OK, time to take a break, go get a donut or something.

     THE DESCENT OF A BEING Part 2.
     http://www.clearing.org/archive?/homer/adore549b.memo

     Homer