ROLAND'S EXTERIORIZATION

     ((Editor's comments in double parentheses. - Homer))

From: Roland 
To: CLEAR-L@lightlink.com
Subject: Account of Exteriorisation with Full Perception
Date: Sat, 19 Jun 1999 08:09:32 +0100

     This is a repost of my account of exteriorisation with full
perception.

     By Roland Rashleigh-Berry.

     This is the story about my experience in Scientology known as
"Exteriorisation with Full Perception".  What this means is leaving your
body and having normal perception such as sight and sound available to
you.

     This happens when you are fully awake being "audited" usually and
happens in the same room as your body in nearly all cases.  Essentially
you ~see~ your body from the outside.  This experience is fairly common
for people receiving Scientology processing.

     From talking to people about 40% of people experience it at some
time and usually early on in their auditing.  It happens most frequently
with "objective" processing which is to do with orientating a person in
the "objective" universe.  (You go around touching walls and holding
them still and finding parts of your body etc.).

     ((Subjective processing addresses their inner mental and emotional
world.  Most often new preclears can not access their inner world
without objective processing done first, and in the process they usually
exteriorize at least once which then is a sign that they are ready to
move on to subjective auditing.))

     In my case it happened during auditing with an E-meter during the
process called "ARC Straightwire" ((which is a subjective process.))

     ((ARC straightwire tries to run a 'straight wire' directly from the
preclear to those pleasure moments in his bank that consist of high
affinity, reality and communication.
 
     "Spot a moment of affinity.
 
     Spot a moment of reality (high realness or co agreement with
someone else).
 
     Spot a moment when you were in good communication with someone."

     The process is run round robin repeating the cycle over and over
again until some significant end phenomenon occurs which includes new
cognitions about the source of his condition, very good indicators
(preclear smiling and happy and looking outword or extroverted) and a
Floating Needle on the e-meter.

     The final end phenomenon of ARC Straight as a group of processes
is: Knows he or she won't get worse.

     This probably arises from the new awareness that one is in control
of one's own affinity, reality and communication with and for things,
and that at some time in the past one withdrew these things and never
put them back.  Spotting times one had ARC for things leads to the
moment when ARC became 'rendered asunder' and was never restored, so of
course the person started to get worse in life there after.

     By denying responsibility for the incident and for withdrawing his
own ARC from the world and people, the being loses the ability to
control his own feelings and mood and his mood then becomes dependent
upon others.  One can see where that might lead long term.

     People who can't love freely any more are in this class.))

     If anyone comes across this they are free to copy and web the page
as well as connect my name with the page.  This conflicts with my
business interests (I have pages on the Internet devoted to a shareware
product of mine) however what I will write here is the truth and that
truth ought to be broadly known to people.  I will present my story next
and at the end will include some analysis of the experience.

     I was being audited in one of the auditing rooms at St.  Hill
Castle in southern England about June 1994.  The process was "ARC
Straightwire".  It was the evening about 8 p.m.  I was becoming rather
bored with the auditing which did not seem to be getting me anywhere.
It seemed to be an almost endless series of questions, an experience to
endure rather than to benefit from.  I looked through the window.  The
sky was darkening with clouds.  It looked as though there would be a
thunder storm shortly.  I returned my attention to the auditor who
seemed to be more disinterested in my auditing than I was.  The auditing
command was "Recall Prevented Sex".  I had exhausted all the examples
some time ago and so was just repeating them.

      The auditor continued with the command though even though I could
think of nothing.  This means that he was getting a persistent read on
the E-meter.  This can mean that there was something I was refusing to
reveal that bothered me about this.  Alternatively it could mean that
there was something underlying this topic that was inaccessible to my
conscious mind.

     ((Third possibilily is the question was clean and overrun, reading
thus on a 'withhold of nothing.'))

     Anyway, the same question was repeated with my repeating the same
examples.  I was bored.  It was then that my previous thoughts regarding
a thunder-storm seemed to be fulfilled in a most spectacular way.  The
single ceiling light in the auditing room flared up to an incredible
brilliance.  I would say it seemed to be about ten times brighter than
normal.

     I was very surprised the bulb did not blow.  I thought a lightning
bolt must have struck the local power station.  I turned to the auditor
and said "Did you see that?".  I got no reaction but then auditors are
trained not to react to things like that.  I was surprised though that
he did not at least acknowledge my comment.

     It seemed as though he had not seen it which to me seemed
impossible.  The light had reduced in intensity but was to me at least
four times as bright as normal.  I was still very concerned about it.  I
asked him "What's wrong with the electricity in here?".  Again I got
absolutely no response.  An instant later I experienced what I thought
was a landslide.

     The whole room slipped forward by about two feet leaving me behind.
It was a bit like the feeling you have when you are in a fast lift
(elevator) going downwards though extremely more so.  The room had
slipped forwards leaving me behind.  I was absolutely shocked.

     I could see the room from outside my body.  I was about the height
of the top of my head but about two to three feet behind and slightly to
the left of my left shoulder.  I wanted to be where my body was.  I did
not understand what was going on.

     I was about to ask the auditor to help me but realised I had no
mouth with which to speak.  No sound came out.  I then thought that I
could probably still use the mouth of my body.  I found I could.  I said
to him "I can still use my body's mouth.  I've slipped two feet
forwards.  Could you push me back two feet back in my direction?" (I
know this is self-contradictory).  The auditor had at last worked out
what was happening.  He said "In the last auditing command, did you
exteriorise?".

     Then, and only then, could I make any sense of what had happened to
me.  I was exterior!  I started taking a more leisurely look round.  The
light now seemed duller han usual rather than brighter.  I could see
fairly clearly and the 3-D seemed more pronounced than normal (I have a
defective left eye which effectively destroys my 3-D vision with normal
sight).

     I looked at the back of my head.  It did not seem like it was me
any more.  I was going to ask the auditor "who's that other person in
the room?" but then I remembered it was my own body.  I remember
thinking to myself "How am I seeing?  If I have no physical eyes then I
have no lenses to focus the light.  Am I actually projecting the world
from my own mind?".  I then started feeling sorry for myself and for
other people.  I was thinking "Is this what we are?  Invisible spirits
too weak to act on their own and now we are trapped in bodies to suffer
the experiences of pain and death".

      I looked at the back of my head again.  I wondered if my body were
a living thing that was once a spirit.  I felt sympathy for my body.  At
that instant I shot towards the head of the body, not of my own
volition, and into it like a bullet.

     ((Hubbard wrote in an obscure bulletin that chronic interiorization
into a body results from the following sequence (my words):

      0.) Harming bodies accidentally, then intentionally.
      1.) Trying to manage and control them more and more by moving closer
and closer to them.
      2.) Refusal to take responsibility for bodies.
      3.) No Sympathy for bodies.
      4.  Sympathy for bodies.
      5.) Propitiation for the body.
      6.) BEING the body.))

     I was back in my body.  I was feeling exhausted.  The auditor, who
I had been ignoring for the last half minute, ended the session without
further ado as is standard procedure when an exteriorisation occurs.

     Though I was tired I began feeling elated.  I thought "That was it,
exteriorisation with full perception.  It's happened to me".  When I got
up to leave the auditing room I discovered that my balance had been
severely effected.  I could hardly manage to walk.  Going down the
corridor I was repeatedly bumping into the walls.  I had to put my hands
out to steady myself.

     The auditor takes you to another room where another person checks
you out on n E-meter.  It is called "exams".  In the outside room I sort
of overshot and went crashing in to a table.  I sort of fell into the
exam room and caused a small surprise.  I was happy.

     When I went back to the place I was staying at, my balance was
still affected.  I walked there which was in retrospect rather stupid
since the road outside was an unlit narrow country road and I could not
walk in a straight line.  However I wanted time to absorb what had
happened to me.

     Walking back I felt I was surrounded by invisible humming machines.
I was tired but I had the feeling I would not sleep well.  When I got
back it was as I expected.  I could not sleep well and must have got
only two hours sleep all night.  My thinking was confused.  Next morning
my balance had thankfully returned to normal.

     That is the end of my story.  I will keep a copy and update it if I
remember any more.  I think I have it all down though.  My memory is
very good.  Now follows some thoughts on this experience.

     Exteriorisation happens to about 40% of people who receive
Scientology auditing and it tends to happen early on in auditing.  It is
little wonder that thereafter the person becomes a supporter of
Scientology.

     "If this is what happens early on then think of what there is to
come" is a common thought.

      The problem is that the experience is non-repeatable (well
certainly I cannot do it and I know of nobody who can do this at will).
As for better things to come this is unfortunately just wishful
thinking.

      It is perfectly obvious to me that L.  Ron Hubbard went off the
rails in the early '60s.  He created a group of followers around him who
believed every word he uttered must be true.

     He also created an absurd system called "ethics" (which was nothing
of the sort) that accused those of not getting good results from
auditing as having crimes against him and Scientology.  In so doing he
robbed himself of all negative feedback from his research and he became
the victim of his own fantasies.

     His later "research" led him to believe in such nonsense as Lord
Xenu who 75 million years ago turned the populations of planets into
"body thetans" which now infest our bodies and need to be telepathically
audited out.  The "upper levels" of Scientology are largely concerned
with this.

     To my thinking we should return to this phenomenon of
"exteriorisation" and forget the rest of Hubbard's material.  It is a
field that requires a great deal of further research.  Even if this
experience is not repeatable then at least it should be further
understood.

     I am no longer a member of the Church of Scientology.  I am now
opposed to its very existence.  Their "Bridge to Total Freedom" which
they sell for hundreds of thousands of dollars is the Bridge to nowhere
but financial ruin.

     That Hubbard went mad in the 60s and degenerated further, both in
his research and his relationships with other people, during his
remaining years is obvious to those who care to read into the subject
(see the book "Bare-Faced Messiah" on the Internet).

      However, at an early stage, I believe his intentions were good.
The phenomenon of exteriorisation is to me the most significant
spiritual and scientific achievement of the last thousand years.  I
believe that this phenomenon, if researched enough, will be the
jumping-off point for the spiritual evolution of mankind in the next
millennium.

                     Roland Rashleigh-Berry,
                     26th December 1996.

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