SORROW AND LAUGHTER
 
     If a thetan can exteriorize into space, then he can also
exteriorize into time.  That means he can go be at times where 'he is
not now', both in the past and the future.
 
     LRH taught us that when a traumatic incident happened, the being
tried to survive the incident by not experiencing it, and thus built a
mass ridge called a facsimile which he carried with him in present
time.
 
     Others consider that at the moment of impact, the being throws up
a mass ridge opposing THAT MOMENT OF TIME.  This does not result in a
copy facsimile being carried forward in time of the event, but in a
permanent exteriorization of part of the thetan into the past incident
that he is still resisting.  He is not resisting a copy of back
there, he is resisting back there!

     Thus an engram is a direct channel to a moment in the past, and
the pc becomes buttered all over the time stream.

     When a loss happens there are 3 events to consider.

     Say in 1960 you have a piece of Gold, and on New Year's eve at 12
midnight you lose it in Time Square.

     The three events then are

     1.) Having the Gold in 1960
     2.) Not having the Gold in 1961
     3.) Loosing the Gold at 12 midnight.

     Points one and two are moments of no change, and point
3 is a moment of change.

     When the being suffers the loss during the moment of change, he
resists the change and the moving of time forward into 1961.  He
considers that to have the gold, he needs to have it in 1961, he also
considers that he no longer has the gold because 1960 is behind him
and 'is no more'.

     To audit this then, one must solve the havingness problem he has
presented himself with as a result of his false realities about the
nature of havingness.

     The being is trying to HAVE THE GOLD PIECE by carrying the gold
piece forward in time with him from 1960 to 1961 to 1962 etc.  When he
loses the gold piece in 1961, he considers that he no longers has the
gold because he no longer has 1960.

     This results in resistence to 1961 and all future years, and to
the moment of change.  This resistence then leaves the pc exteriorized
to the moment of change which is AFTER the moment of havingness!

     So he doesn't have.

     To audit this, one then needs to get the pc to exteriorize
further from the moment of change to BEFORE the moment of change/loss,
so that he can then HAVE the gold again in 1960.  This will loosen up
his consideration that he suffered a loss, because clearly the gold in
1960 didn't go anywhere, IT'S STILL THERE!

     By recovering his ability to exteriorize to 1960, he will loosen
up his fixation on the change point, and be able to exteriorize
forward in time to 1961 and later, where he does not have any gold,
allowing him to come to present time again at will, even though there
is no gold in present time.  It becomes just another moment of time,
gold or not.

     If he wants to have gold he can visit 1960.  If he wants to not
have gold he can visit 1961.

     Trying to have a piece of gold through all moments of time, is
like trying to have a piece of gold through all moments of space.
That's much too much gold.  You don't want all space to be taken up
with gold, and you don't want all time to be taken up with gold
either.

     If a being has a piece of gold in one position in space, and he
becomes unable to go there again, he will consider that he has lost
that piece of gold and his ownership of that position in space, even
though the gold is still there.  He will thus try to fill yet another
position in space with more gold so he can have that one instead.

     The same thing goes with time.  If the being has a piece of gold
in 1960, and then for some reason is not allowed to go back to 1960,
he will try to fill up 1961 and 1962 etc with gold too.  He will try
to fill up wherever he is with gold as he keeps loosing access to
where he was.

     Once he has access again to the position in space where he has a
piece of gold, he will be willing to have other positions in space NOT
have a piece of gold.  Once he has access to the moment in time where
he has a piece of gold, he will be willing to have other moments in
time NOT have a piece of gold.

     When a being defines his havingness as "what he has now in the
present moment of time", then he has severely limited his havingeness,
which will lead to compulsive efforts to have more havingness NOW,
havingness that he already has at other moments in time!  This leads
to a total chaos of havingness.

     The being who is free to exteriorize to any place in time at
will, has a much different view of havingness.  He is no longer
interested in having the gold in 1960 and 1961, he is much more
interested in having the gold in 1960, and LOOSING IT in 1961.  This
is because his havingness consists of the WHOLE STORY, not merely the
one page he happens to be reading at the moment.

     The same thing goes for the future.  He is poor now and will be
rich in the future.  His havingness consists of being poor now, it
does not consists of being rich in the future.  This bothers him, and
he worries etc about getting from here to there as fast as he can.
His charge is on the present and the change in the future that makes
him rich.  Getting rich might seem like a positive change, but it's
resisted as well as any loss and needs to be run out just like the
loss.  First Hellos are just as aberrative as Last Goodbyes, and in
fact form the basic on Last Goodbyes.

     When he can exteriorize into time, his havingness consists of
being poor now and being rich in the future: he HAS the WHOLE STORY.
Thus things are fine to him as they are.

     He can adjust the story from a trans time point of view, to make
the story better, but he won't be bent on a compulsive course to fill
all of time with either riches or poverty.

     Imagine a person who could not span a whole book, but only the
page he was on?  When a good page comes along, he tries to make the
whole book consist of that one page over and over again.

     A person who can span the whole book, can span the whole story.

     Thus the story gets written properly.

     The guy who is trying to GET RICH because he is poor now and
can't exteriorize to times in the past when he was rich, and times in
the future when he will be rich, will never get rich, because no one
will buy a book that consists of the same page over and over again,
including himself.

     The problem comes in when you get stuck reading one page at a
time and CAN'T go back to earlier pages and CAN'T go ahead to later
pages at will.  Some readers might have this problem, but the writer
never does.

     The way to happiness is to be the writer, not the reader.


     Homer

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